Episode 134 - "Who are you seeking?" John 20:11-18
John 20:11 But Mary stood weeping outside the tomb, and as she wept she stooped to look into the tomb. 12 And she saw two angels in white, sitting where the body of Jesus had lain, one at the head and one at the feet. 13 They said to her, “Woman, why are you weeping?” She said to them, “They have taken away my Lord, and I do not know where they have laid him.” 14 Having said this, she turned around and saw Jesus standing, but she did not know that it was Jesus. 15 Jesus said to her, “Woman, why are you weeping? Whom are you seeking?” Supposing him to be the gardener, she said to him, “Sir, if you have carried him away, tell me where you have laid him, and I will take him away.” 16 Jesus said to her, “Mary.” She turned and said to him in Aramaic, “Rabboni!” (which means Teacher). 17 Jesus said to her, “Do not cling to me, for I have not yet ascended to the Father; but go to my brothers and say to them, ‘I am ascending to my Father and your Father, to my God and your God.’” 18 Mary Magdalene went and announced to the disciples, “I have seen the Lord”—and that he had said these things to her.
Talk about a moving event! Let’s recall the context according to John’s gospel. Mary Magdalene came to the tomb early on the third day. John tells us that it was still dark. She discovers the tomb is open and Jesus’ body is not there.
Let’s put ourselves in Mary’s shoes. She was a woman whom Jesus had cast out seven demons (Luke 8:2). Luke mentions she was one of a group of women who assisted Jesus and his disciples with their needs. (Luke 8:3) Mary was grateful to Jesus. Can you imagine the shock she experienced when she saw the empty tomb? I am sure she was still reeling from the events that unfolded just two days earlier. Now, Jesus’ body was gone. She told the disciples, “They have taken away the Lord and we do not know where they have laid him.” (John 20:2)
After Peter and John ran to check out the tomb, they returned home. It would appear they had done nothing to console Mary. Mary was left weeping. Her emotion had moved from the initial shock or surprise to that of depression. She was weeping near the entrance and saw two angels inside the tomb. Were they there when Peter and John were there what seems to have just been moments earlier? If so, why didn’t the disciples see the angels?
What’s amazing is that she didn’t seem to recognize they were angels. Perhaps as one who had been possessed by seven demons, the experience of having supernatural beings talk to her was not all that unusual. They asked her why she was weeping and her response was “They have taken away my Lord, and I do not know where they have laid him.” Her emotion seems to have shifted from shock to deep, personal anguish.
Having said this she turned around and saw Jesus standing there. However, she did not recognize him either. Jesus echoed the same question asked by the angels, “Why are you weeping?” He immediately followed this with “Whom are you seeking?” (v.15) The repetition of the question “Why are you weeping?” is intended to get Mary to stop and think about it. I suspect the mystery and confusion of the empty tomb had just reopened the wound of the shock and grief of Jesus’ death. But, Jesus had told his followers what was going to happen. None of them could comprehend fully what he was prophesying until after everything unfolded the way it did. But, Mary’s reaction stands in contrast to Peter and John’s reactions as they emerged from the empty tomb. Perhaps the repetition of this question has a purpose for us as well. Do we see the significance of the empty tomb? Jesus is alive. He has overcome death. As we consider this ourselves, it should remind us that our faith in his resurrection means we should be rejoicing.
Jesus’ follow-up question “Whom are you seeking?” is important for us as well. Who are we seeking? Are we seeking a political leader who we think will make decisions and policies that we like? Are we like the people who ate of the food near the Sea of Galilee and who were seeking a Jesus who they could put over them and manipulate to do what they wanted him to do? Or, are we humbling ourselves before the Son of God who laid down his life to take upon himself the judgment of our sin and who calls us to “drink his blood” and “eat his flesh?”
Mary still didn’t recognize him as he asked these questions. It was then that Jesus said her name, “Mary!” Instantly, she recognized him. At the time I am writing this, my dad has been deceased for 22.5 years. Yet, I know that if he could walk up behind me and say my name, I would immediately recognize his voice. When someone we love and who loves us speaks our name, we recognize it. Mary’s debilitating grief was cured in an instant.
In John 10, Jesus claimed to be the Good Shepherd and said that his sheep hear his voice and follow him. Sheep recognize the voice of their shepherd and know their shepherd cares for them. Mary is a prime example of this illustration bearing itself out to be true. The power of Jesus’ voice was greater than all her grief and confusion.
Other than report that Mary calls him Rabboni (Teacher), John doesn’t say directly what Mary did to Jesus. However, Jesus said to her, “Do not cling to me, for I have not yet ascended to my father . . . “ (John 20:17) Some translations read, “Do not touch me.” That is possible. But, I think the intent is to tell Mary that she cannot cling to or “hold on” to Jesus as he will soon go to be with the Father. Also, in a matter of days, Jesus would tell his disciple Thomas “put your fingers in the nailprints in my hands” and “put your hand into my side” (John 20:27). There wasn’t something about his body that Jesus needed to prohibit Mary from touching him. Given her devotion to Jesus and overwhelmed with grief in his death, you can imagine why her reaction would be to “cling” to him. Perhaps his message that she cannot cling to him because he is going away to the Father might have been distressing. But, the fact that he was no longer dead, that he knew her name, and that he cared enough to come to her and comfort her was enough. She returned to the disciples not in grief, but in excitement. “I have seen the Lord!” (John 20:18)
If we take nothing else away from this narrative, remember that Jesus had told people the Son of Man would return and speak and the dead would be raised. (John 5:19-29) Then, in John 11:1-44, Jesus demonstrated that he could do what he promised by calling Lazarus, who had been dead and buried for four days, by name and resurrecting him from the dead. If Jesus can raise himself from the dead as is reported in these gospels, then nothing can stop him from delivering his promises to raise us. In times of trouble and suffering in this life, we can remember that Jesus has conquered death and has an eternal plan and promise for us. That hope does not negate the sorrow we feel today. But, knowing that what is to come is good, perfect, and eternal helps us carry on.